Frustration

Well this is annoying. I've pretty much had a great day today. Had good news at college, had a good laugh, and I've been pretty productive.

Sounds good, aye?

Why the fuck have I been feeling really fucking angry for the past 2 - 3 hours then?! I've stayed to myself mainly to avoid snapping or lashing out at people but it's really pissing me off.

Gonna sleep on the couch tonight me thinks. Earphones + music + proper dark room and a cheeky smoke. This may help.

Oi, good mood, you better come back tomorrow or else!!!! >:(

Valentines Day. What's your opinion of it?

So. It's that time of the year again. The time of year when young girls dream of receiving that card from their secret sweetheart exposing their love of them, where girls dream of being proposed to by their other half in the most ridiculously cutesy and "chick flick" way. When greeting card companies get intense boners as this day is the new Christmas in marketing terms. Or you get the people miserable bastards like me who either don't give a rats arse, or those who have deep-seated hatred of it.

Oh childhood... You were a cruel bitch!

I've had a lot of comments like "how can you hate Valentines Day?! It's about LOVE etc etc etc etc". I just don't get it. I don't understand why you need a day of the year to feel the need to "express your love" for someone. Would it not be more of a romantic gesture to do something; whether it is buying a gift, going out for a meal or a holiday, when a day of the year didn't make it such a big deal?

Also, I know I can say for a fact, back when I was single I hated this day even more. Nothing reminds you more of how crap it is to be single than V-Day. Smug couples and pink love hearts were my enemies years ago :P It all just seems quite fake.

But that's just my opinion. I'm not saying that every single person is carving "WHY U NO <3 ME?!" on their arm today, and I know there are those who enjoy an excuse to repulse the human race with their cutesyness.

All I say is try and do something special on a day that doesn't fund all the corporate shammy holiday people.

Mind you, I have seen some FANTASTIC cards online this year. I'll put up a couple of my favorites :)

Bahahaha.... Bottom...

So, to sum it all up, I hope you have a nice Tuesday regardless what you do or who you're with.

Le fin :)

*P.S. I apologize at the way the images are. Trying to arrange the pictures on  Blogger is a tad pernickety!

As Plato once said....

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Long story short, I really need a smoke :(

"Fake it till you make it"

Ok, so I had a bit of a lapse recently. Just everything building up in my head and I kinda snapped. Tried to do something that I kinda regret, but failed.

So yeah, hasn't been the greatest of moments truth be told but meh... You learn from your mistakes, yeah?

Kenny had shown me a web comic where the main character randomly comes out saying that he suffers from depression, and while at the therapist he says that he "fakes it till he makes it". I dunno why, but that line kinda hit me... Dunno if that's good or bad, but it just made me realise that that's what I kinda do. I just go about faking to be this character. I won't lie, it gave me a bit of an identity crisis y'know? That whole dramatic moment where you start questioning who you even are. Pretty lame, huh?

My head is just all over the place recently. Too much stress in my own life and everyone else's and it just kinda builds up on me. I just need a vacation. Take me away to Alaska. Give me unlimited smokes, weed and Pepsi Max and I'll binge the sad away :P

I don't think the lack of money is helping much either these days. We're fed up asking to borrow money. Doesn't do well for ones esteem these days.

Ach well, gotta think positive right?

INITIATE POSITIVE THINKING IN

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GO!

... I'm going to see Mastodon on Tuesday!! I reckon a bunch of flailing and screaming will cleanse the soul marvellously! Hahaha :P

Anyhoo, that will do for now :) Toodles bitches :)