Ok, so I had a bit of a lapse recently. Just everything building up in my head and I kinda snapped. Tried to do something that I kinda regret, but failed.
So yeah, hasn't been the greatest of moments truth be told but meh... You learn from your mistakes, yeah?
Kenny had shown me a web comic where the main character randomly comes out saying that he suffers from depression, and while at the therapist he says that he "fakes it till he makes it". I dunno why, but that line kinda hit me... Dunno if that's good or bad, but it just made me realise that that's what I kinda do. I just go about faking to be this character. I won't lie, it gave me a bit of an identity crisis y'know? That whole dramatic moment where you start questioning who you even are. Pretty lame, huh?
My head is just all over the place recently. Too much stress in my own life and everyone else's and it just kinda builds up on me. I just need a vacation. Take me away to Alaska. Give me unlimited smokes, weed and Pepsi Max and I'll binge the sad away :P
I don't think the lack of money is helping much either these days. We're fed up asking to borrow money. Doesn't do well for ones esteem these days.
Ach well, gotta think positive right?
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... I'm going to see Mastodon on Tuesday!! I reckon a bunch of flailing and screaming will cleanse the soul marvellously! Hahaha :P
Anyhoo, that will do for now :) Toodles bitches :)
I know how you feel here - putting on a show to make things just "go" a bit easier.
ReplyDeleteIf you make any progress on the Alaska plan, count me in - that sounds absolutely awesome!
And "Damn you lucky bastard" - on the Mastodon front - I've wanted to see them for years!
It's always nice to know that someone can relate and understand exactly what you're talking about sometimes :)
DeleteRegarding the Alaska plan, I'm always looking into going away to work for for the Summer. There seems to be jobs that become available round about May/June to work in the nature reserves, and they offer accommodation as well. How amazing would that be?! Living in a wooden cabin surrounded by amazing scenery and animals?! The inner hippy in me in dancing with joy at the thought of it :P
Also, you MUST go and see Mastodon. I moshed my ass off - especially to Megalodon :D