Tuesday, August 9, 2011

This is tougher than I ever expected

I wish I could drive. I just want to drive away from here and go somewhere I feel safe and relaxed. With Kenny being away it's making me realize how much I really struggle at being on my own. I feel like a nervous wreck depending on people online to keep me company more than usual - which is never a good thing considering that these people have their own lives to deal with. I just feel so selfish.

It's actually exhausting being so damned miserable. I'm sick of it and it's making me ill.

I'm trying to get through this by just sleeping. I woke up today at the back of 9pm which is good, cause if I manage to sleep by 2pm then hopefully I can wake up at 6pm then it's another day that's disappeared.

I wish I had a Tardis.

No, scrap that. I wish I had a fucking life.

1 comment:

  1. You will feel less isolated once you move back to Glasgow and you're nearer people :). I felt the same way when I first moved to London, I was constantly working and all my "friends" were my bosses friends and family - so I couldn't ever bitch about her! Haha. Then I got a new job, with less hours and stress, moved to a new area to be nearer people I knew and I made more friends. Things got better because of it.

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